Spring in My Soul

If I said I were sad for March to be exiting like either a lamb or a lion, I'd be a big, fat liar! I don't care how it goes; I just want it to go. Goodbye. Adios. Sayonara. Got the picture, ladies? Crying over spilled milk gets us nothing but a sticky, smelly spot on the floor. So good riddance to you, Mr. March. Notice the masculinity of him! Speaks volumes, I know. It's meant to.

Spring is just around the corner and this year I need a spring in my soul. I will die without it. Sound melodramatic or is it right on the money? How are you feeling on this last day of the month?

I know I can't fool around with this life of mine any longer. It's the only one God intends to give me. So what do I do with it? That's the $64,000 question now, isn't it? My life. My life. That right there is the biggest lie! It's not my life; it never has been. God never intended for my life to stay belonging solely to me. Maybe y-e-a-r-s ago on the day of my birth my life was mine for a second or two. But after that I've been supposed to live for others. I've always felt it. Even before I was purposely preached all the expectations of a Christian, it's lived as a tenet in my soul. I've always felt it. But does this "tenant" still reside in my soul or has she moved on?

Sometimes I wonder - like pretty much all of March! But I know what is right. And I know how to treat people well. I have hurdles to scale but what else do I have to do beside do what God wants me to do?

For a solid month I haven't known what to pray for. No specifics for myself. So I've prayed for God's will. And I still pray for God's will. Maybe in regard to all of us, ladies and moms, this is the one prayer that will soften God's heart so he inclines His ear to us. I sure hope so. Thy will be done.

~ Maureen :)

What Have I Been Doing?

I've been very, very busy. That's what I've been doing. Attempting to do all that God puts in my path and sadly, having to forgo some enjoyable activities, like writing to you. I hope you are well and closer to God during these 40 days than you were at the beginning.

I am well, and also closer to God, I hope. I have undertaken something which has given me considerable happiness. Details will be in my column Just Another Manic Momday in the Spring/Summer issue of Mom Writer's Literary Magazine, but you can have a preview.

I have cleaned out a hopelessly cluttered, crumbling room of my house to be my very own space with God. My writer space. My thinking space. My get-away-from-all-men-in-the-house space. And I love it. I adore it. I cherish it.

A friend e-mailed me the other day and said some very nice things about my Lenten journey because it was obvious to her the transformation in my life in this past month or so. Sometimes you don't see what's right in front of you. Before my friend brought it to my attention I had not thought of my pursuits as being on the Lenten Road - but they are, they truly are.

I have simplified, thrown out much visible, as well as invisible, clutter in my life. And it feels quite freeing. Opportunities have presented themselves which I never would have considered one short year ago, but now I have trips planned to Chicago, New Jersey and San Diego! I have been next-to-nowhere other than here at home for most of my life. So this is very exciting for me.

I credit alignment with God's wishes for my life for the turnaround in my life. I ask Him want He wants; I try to do it. It really is that simple. I made it much too complicated for years and years.

I wish you the same simplicity toward God in your life.

~ Maureen :)